alice fell into rabbit hole

sleepy in wonderland

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

back here to have a look

wandering around and suddenly remembered the old place... turned my back to look at time past... this is where i used to be.

Sunday, May 01, 2005

I am Moving!!!

1. Literally. i m moving house in about 13hrs time. almost finished packing now and sweating like a pig... i hate packing!!! ahhhhhhhh!!!

2. this blog is moving. i m flying back to Beijing on 3rd May and blogger blogs cannot be viewed in China. dun like the feeling of being able to post but never see what i've posted... so i m moving to msn space, tentatively until i m back in Singapore again. it's here: http://spaces.msn.com/members/aliceinrabbithole/

bye bye nus... 4yrs is a long time...

Saturday, April 30, 2005

mid packing

stayed up till 3+ to pack. and woke up at 1130 for more packing. this is how my room looks like now:



earthly possessions... that's what held us down... haha... but impossible not to have coz i m a mere mortal... i need two big boxes of clothes(including pillow, bedsheet and blankets though), two medium boxes of shoes and one medium size box of bags... not mentioning all the CDs and books i've accumulated over the years. now there is hardly any space in my room to put my feet down. luckily i m not fat... (i hope no one objects to that).

went mac to buy lunch. coz guofeng say weifa is packing 'cute chicken' (quote) for them. i say the chicken is too cute for me. in fact it reminds me of exam... so i packed mac and went to the classroom to look for them and also to enjoy the air con. (hmm actually at this very moment my room is super duper windy and very cool, a beautiful saturday afternoon if not looking at the mess behind me.) well 4 lonely souls studying there: zhi shen, guofeng, chee kiong and benjamin. the poor guys who are taking DCS. later on weifa came with food and more gossiping begins. someone is volunteered by everyone else to help us shifting tomorrow. hehe coz he has strong arms? the cute chicken rice also became 黯然销魂饭. coz that particular someone choked and let a tear flow down. that should have never happened in front of zhi shen coz he could go on and on about the person is missing someone so he cried blah blah... reminds me of 大话西游, 有一个女孩子留了一样东西在我心里,是一滴眼泪. wahahahaha...

one interesting topic is about神雕侠侣. apparently the 雕 inside cannot fly but can run faster than a horse. (the horse thing is according to weifa, as if he has run with the 雕 before. so conclusion is the 雕 is not a 雕, it's a 鸵鸟...

Friday, April 29, 2005

graduation

officially finished nus.

the last paper, is possibly, or most likely the worst paper i've had in nus, or rather, the worst i've done in my entire life. i think i left more than half of the paper untouched. no time and dunno how to do. first time ever, in history!

feel so cheated and defeated. not as if i've never studied. i left the exam hall area when people started discussing the questions that i didn't do... on my way back tear flowed down. how regretful it would be, that the end of my entire education is marked with a failure. ok maybe i wouldn't fail coz everyone is doing badly, but i can't take even a C. i've never had a C in the entire 4 yrs... end the whole thing with a grade that spoils my whole record will be my biggest 遗憾...

sigh... so this is the way i am graduating...

Thursday, April 28, 2005

politically correct

i sincerely hate politics. most of the time it sounds to me like children playing in cliches. if you friend him i won't friend you that kinda thing... perhaps it is much needed but i just hate to talk about it and hear about it. when it comes to politics, multiple standards apply and there is no definite answer. even logics dun apply... which makes it much worse than law.

recently, my friend KK and his friends are having some discussion about some political issues on his blog. to be specific, about the china-japan thing.

i posted some comments, and people are arguing back pointing out the mistakes made by chinese goverment, apparently pro-japan. all the issues of cultural revolution, tibet, tiananmen square were brought out as well no matter if they are relevant. being me, i had to point out where i think they are wrong.

this led me to think, why are people so hang up on debating about politics? they take a stand and then rebute everyone else who has a different view and think they are objective. i am not objective in this issue i admit. how can i? it involves my country of origin. i feel for it. and how about singaporeans as a third party? does that mean third parties are definitely objective? i bet to differ. who can get hold all the actual facts? i don't think there is anything as absolute truth in the first place. people in china might not have insights of how it is really like in japan. maybe they are influenced by propaganda. but how about those ppl criticizing china? how much do they really know about china?

if it can never be objective, and maybe some people don't know the subject matter well enough, what's so fun keeping talking about it? may i just say that, it doesn't matter what the actual truth really is coz we would never know, but it is more important to understand why people take such actions, what are the reasons and sentiments behind? after all, in politics, there is no absolute right or wrong, at most you can be politically correct, except for some things that can be judged by obvious moral standard.

talking politics for fun of course is harmless. but how about when it becomes offending to people who are actually involved? well i have to say i do feel a bit offended by all this talking. like i can't stand when people come and tell me tibet is an independent country. it is bloody not an indpendent country! it would be like saying singapore is part of malaysia. in this case i guess i looked for the trouble myself by reading KK's blog. but he's my friend, although i can't expect him to be so considerate as not to mention it at all because he has a friend from China, but... well... i m just thinking how much politics can affect ur personal relationships with people...

so, as a third party, shouldn't people really ask themselves do they really understand the parties involved in the event before they call themselves objective and make comments and site all those seemingly truth? personally i think, if not, they shouldn't take a stand at all coz it doesn't concern the third parties. that's y the america is hated by so many-being nosy.

and let's talk about the sentiments. i m not saying i agree with what the chinese are doing. but i m saying i understand the sentiments behind their actions. they may not know the absolute truth but they acted. why? coz they have this passion and it's in the culture. singapore culture is more peaceful and practical if i may say, not as emotional, not as passionate. someone has asked me why do chinese still resent the past so much? it's been so many generations. do i have any relatives killed by the japanese? yes i do, my great grandpa was a mechanical engineer who repairs aeroplanes for the chinese army during world war two and apparently his death was directly linked to the japanese's bombing. but well, i've never seen him before so i dun feel that sad. but that doesn't matter. coz you don't only feel passionate about something only if yourself has directly link with it, direct loss and benefits. there is an emotion called patriotism, called pride.

my point is, if the culture is different, there is a big gulf in between. so my suggestion is, before commenting, take a role switch.

comments are welcome but no side taking on china-japan issue and other politics k?

white board drawing,click to enlarge Posted by Hello

last day of mugging

today is officially the last day of me mugging in school. a day of hating ACS, gossiping and fun and laughter.

it is amazing that even when some people are away, they can be gossiped about. the first thing i was told to do as i got into the classroom was to go to the neighbouring room to check out the drawing on the white board... well... i m going to post it here later so check it out. the left half of the drawing is the super spider crawling about with the tone of final count down. haha... that's a tribute to the dsta zai qiu who is also known as the ganjong spider. the right half featured zhishen as a crow flying by. down there got mickey and a pig. hmm... mickey was the one who drew the picture but he claims that he was cheated and betrayed.

anyway a lot of gossips today... as 'mickey' was trying to take revenge, we also caught wind of someone else's secret... wahahaha... so fun! but of course he subsequently got more suaning...

as blur and i concluded last night, all the gossip so far, or to be politically correct-most of the gossips so far, stemmed from one person... mr. ZS!!! no wonder he's portrayed as the 乌鸦... big mouth some more, zhi qiang who just joined us for studying recently also know i m BBSS already... duh... or as ler ming put it, this is a 'scandalous room'. coincidentally when he said it, zhi shen was sitting at the teacher's table, in the position to chair the scandalous room...

anyway at 8+, after i came back from toilet visiting, blur asked me if i smelled fermented bean curd as i entered the room. there indeed is such a smell, mixed with macdonald's fries etc and we were wondering where it is from. zhi qiang, sitting beside blur, with an innocent and serious face (he always has an innocent and serious face, 诚恳的脸), pointed at blur's feet... haha... tt's a very good one lor, coz he did it as if it was a matter of fact... and blur was on the rim of stabbing him with her pen knife. a few days ago, coz blur killed a cockroach in her room, she was named 小强杀手 by us. and 智强 can also be called 小强, so he deserves to be killed by blur anyway. hmm and that led us to think that it was written on someone's eraser '别人都怕怕,我最爱小强'. haha...

today i must remember to watch death of cleopatra on discovery channel!

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

when ppl say 'rot in hell', do they mean come to singapore at this time of the year and sit at somewhere non-air conditioned in the middle of the day? the weather is killing! i can only comfort myself by saying 'i will have air con from 1st of May onwards!' 4 more days... how to sleep at night?

today blur said: 我感觉自己像一只充满了水的海蜇. it comes from the muscle ache both of us are suffering... punched too hard yesterday at kickboxing. i can't bend my back, and i can't reach to my back with my hands... there goes my comtemplation of sleeping naked to feel cooler, coz i would have difficulty taking my clothes off.

anyway, hello, is there anyone reading my blog? blur's blog got so many comments and mine is almost barren... sob sob... i sound boring do i? *jealous*

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

hmm haven't concussed... just posted a damn long comment on KK's blog... guess i m very wordy today... yawns...